My beautiful friends, I am not sure if I deserve you. And I’m unsure of what I’ve done to have you on my side even though you are from 200 to 4,800 miles away from me. But, I relish and appreciate you beyond compare, you are my angels and I love you.


My beautiful Tamiko (Her fantastic Blog, so full of natural remedies and jewelry making!) – I thank you from the bottom of my heart ♥. I’m unsure of how you knew my love and the link between me and my father for crosses, but I will cherish these forever. I cannot wait to wear them on a regular basis. ♥

My beautiful Lola, (Nopperabou – Lola is the best Buck-Tick translator in the world!) and also an amazing writer who seems to share a soul- Your eloquent words always leave me joyful, hopeful and melancholy all at the same time. I love you, my dear, my mirror sister, more than my simple words can express. 空に向け　握った手の中　星の粒

My beautiful Nanako, Thank you for this stunning card and this gorgeous rosary, my father would have loved it. The card means so much to me, thank you for putting such time and love inside. The 彼岸花 (Higanbata) or Red Spider Lily is a symbol of death in Japan and it is also the  flower of my birthday, September 20.

My beautiful Zsu Zsu… Thanks my drágám! You always know how to cheer up a girl. I miss you, I wish I was in New York with you.

Thank you my dears, I cherish these and keep the cards near my dad.

My beautiful darling Sarcat – Thank you for always knowing how to cheer me up, with dolls~! Thank you for helping me take Twilight Dolls and turning them into OOAK Ken’s~!

Also, I thank those of you who have been in contact with me regarding how I am doing.
My Darlings, Eric – you’ve been my main solace and grace during this, I don’t know what I would have done without you, I can’t wait to hug you half to death ♥ -  Lory, Peter, Ray, Dirt, Hiraishi, Tommy, Mario, Tash, Thomas, Yuji, Stephen, Jacqui, Mark, Hide, Michelle, Arada, Johann, Nana, Brian, Matt, Chris, Dom, Tara, Qinxu, Masanobu, Futoshi, Lyndie, Sangho, Priscilla, Jennifer, James, Stu, Lucho, Stephanie, Kris, Tempast, Irene, Paul, Brett, Amber Elizabeth, Jimi, William, Kyle, Ryan, Vanessa, Mike, Barrie, Sheana, Isa, Bruce, Dalton, Kevin, Jakoh ♥ ♥ … Thank you, deeply. And anyone I forgot, I am so sorry, I will add you  if you tell me *hugs*

Thank you Tamiko~ I love them!

This was on the 23rd of March, Saturday, Mass for Palm Sunday. I only stayed for about 30 minutes of the service. I hadn’t been in a church in a very long time but I felt that I needed to go on this day. For those of you who aren’t familiar, Palm Sunday aka Passion Sunday, is the day that Jesus entered Jerusalem the week before his death and resurrection. To me, this day was a celebration of my father walking the road into the celestial realm. It was a beautiful day with the sun shining warmly.

These photos were taken the day I received the phone call from the hospital. These are dedicated to my father, he was always my biggest fashion supporter, especially when I was a little darkling. Up until the day he died, he wore leather jackets, smoked and wore chains and skulls.

His ashes are finally on their way home, after a battle with the state regarding his death certificate. Today is his 57th birthday. Happy Birthday and Welcome Home.

And FYI: I’ve never smoked anything in my life, not a cigarette, not pot and much less harder drugs. A good girl in a bad role.
And also, I feel like I look of a decent height in these, since I’m only 5’1″